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So we went on our Vegas trip and it was SSSOOOO fun!!! We got a little crunk, but not too much ;) And, the drive back was horrible! There was so much snow on the roads, then it was a blizzard! Glad we decided to take the truck, we almost took the car, but we got home, just took much longer. We had the kids with Howie and Billie and things got all messed up and I had to have Tori take them, she freaking saved our ass' we would have been in a big mess if she didnt. :) The boys were so happy to see us, we were all finally home again, that little bit of time away makes me appreciate even more all the things that I have and that I deal with everyday, its hard to stay home and take care of kids, house, etc. but it is so worth it, I wouldnt change it for a thing. We are back to the normal routine, school, errands and such, other then trying to find JD a new phone...when we were in Vegas I kept telling him to just give me his phone and I would put it in my purse so he didnt break it, well we go to sit down to eat and he says "oh, my phone, i dont wanna break it" as he reached in his BACK pocket, ya, screen all busted, good job there! UGH! lol So I have to find him another one, I dont want to deal with the whole bullcrap of the shipping in and all that, so I am just going to find one on KSL. But the trip was fun fun, we had some fun with Dan and Angie that is a different fun from what it usually is since we have kids around 24-7. lol. But I am so glad they went, they almost didnt since they were sick but they ended up just coming and had a ton of fun. I hope I dont get sick since I shared drinks with them, but at the time it didnt matter lol ;) Angie and I would have done a little more, but the lamo guys werent into some of the stuff we suggested. haha. But our room that they put us in right when we got there was so stinky like sewage by the first morning that I was throwing up and they changed our room, something was wrong with the drain so they put us up on the 18th floor instead of the 6th, little higher, little more anxiety but I did it :) yay! We went to the top of the stratosphere and I totally almost passed out, my heart was racing, I tried, but didnt last long...but in the elevator was a good time HAHAHA Dan was just showing the love, but I was so nervous about the fact of us getting on and going up I didnt pay attention...but pretty much one of the funniest situations EVER! :) But....back to reality and responsibility til next time....

What the shizzzzz

So work is finally pickin up for JD that is so exciting since we are planning our trip trippity!! YAY!! And I have my doc appointment on Friday and they will do an Ultrasound to find out exactly what is going on, I still feel my uterus growing and its making my pants actually stick out really far down..little weird being there is not a baby in it right!? And I still feel all my pregnancy symptoms and am now 13 days late for my period...super odd on all this happening and not being pregnant, I was laying there last night and JD started to poke my stomach and there was this really hard lump right in between my bellybutton and pubic bone that stood alone, it felt so weird and neither of us had noticed it before, I wonder if there is a possibility that this is a eptopic and I am just not getting pain along with it?? Weird, but we will know all the facts on Friday, I cant wait!!!!! And Ryker is officially potty trained!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAHHHH!!!! :) On Saturday night I ran out of diapers so I decided now was the time...I put him in underwear, we woke up Sunday and he was dry bed and everything..then Monday came, I thought ok here is the real test, if he wakes up and goes to the bathroom without me telling him..then about an hour after we woke up I started to worry that he was going to just pee, then he ran past me and so did Kayden all the sudden Kayden screams "oh my heck mom, he just went pee in the toilet!!" Then he took his nap and woke up dry, then woke up today(tuesday) and ran past me while I was washing my hands and went into my bathroom and went pee!! And he has gone #2 twice on the toilet, it has been sosooooooooo freaking awesome! The times I tried before he obviously just was not ready, this time he was! I am super excited about not having diapers to change atleast for a bit, he has also decided that he doesnt want to sit in his 5 harness seat anymore so he has been sitting in a booster and he is getting himself all unbuckled and everything so that all we have to do is open the door and he climbs out. Our lives are getting so chill finally!! We have waited for the day that Ryker and Kayden were both able to play games and get in and out of things without us having to worry that Ryker is going to get hurt! We are very much enjoying the kids getting older its giving us some time to focus on us again, Ryker took alot of time and we had to pay attention to him all the time then when it wasnt him it was Kayden so Kayden would still feel loved, so its been kinda rough and Chaotic, so we are loving the stage of our lives right now...then we are still trying to have another so its going to be exciting to find out weather or not we are pregnant and then we can keep trying if not :) Either way we are enjoying this stage in our lives, and will continue to..its awesome...

February..already!

Wow, seems like life just flies by when you have kiddos to keep you busy! We had another fun weekend, on Friday night we just hung out and spent time together as a family, then Saturday Dan and Angie came over with their kids again, its very nice to have friends that are like brother and sister to us, and our kids actually get along fairly well for there being 6 of them! lol Kayden calls them his cousins, and we are all pretty dang close buddies so its nice to hang out with them, too bad we live so far from them, by the time it gets to be like 9 everyone gets so tired and then has to drive so we have to call it a night. JD and Danno watched Zombieland, me and Angie just kept busy, we arent into the scary stuff..so the boys once again got a nice peaceful night ;) haha I painted Raegans Toes & Nails, ohhh so freaking cute and fun! I love it! So we did girly stuff while the guys watched a scary show! lol And...went on Saturday and did another blood test, came back hcg levels are at 2, its not high enough to say I am pregnant, I dont know what the hell is going on with my retarded body, its getting super irritating, I have to go to the ob on the 12th and he will do an ultrasound and he will be the one to decided weather or not I am going to have to do a dnc..I am confused, every doc is showing and telling me something diff, so I cant wait to go in and have proof with the ultrasound that either I AM or AM NOT. I still have not started my period, I am now 9 days late, I feel very pregnant and shitty, and I swear I can feel my uterus growing and poking out...so we will see. At this point I am planning on not being just to save the heartache, but I will not be surprised when they say I am it just took a while for my body to get the hcg out...:) uh oh well...will let you know!

Things are great...things are grand!!!

So Angelina JoGreene came over today and played and the guys got home from work and we made some Tacos and let the kids play and go buckwild the whole night! It was fun, we dont ever have anyone come over to our house so it was really fun to have all of them over and play, the kids love when there are other people over here playing with their toys!! YAY! lol And...JD actually got some mad hours in this week and tomorrow is all going to be OT, and Saturday if he works, that is going to be awesome then we can have a even funner Vegas trip! :) Which we are soooooo freaking excited for, we need to get away so bad for a second! We are going to stay in the Stratosphere and go to dinner in the top of it one night..I am a little nervous for that though it is 800 ft in the air and spins 360 degree's while you eat!! AAHH! But it is going to be so freaking fun especially since were going with our BFFFF's :) We are all going to have such a good time, usually there are 6 kids running around us when we are all together so its going to be a blast! JD is so excited to take me, this is the first time I have ever gone and there is a possibility that I am pregnant, so I will go to the doctor next friday and find out for sure what is going on...I am sooo excited, to either find out that I am pregnant, or why the hell I am not having a period and feeling like poo! lol So either way things will be getting figured out! So Vegas will be fun either way since its going to be the first time ever, I did kinda want to drink a little, but I guess if I cant that is alright too! haha So...we will see how it goes..On Saturday I am going to go get another follow up blood test and if it pulls another negative, then I am definatly not pregnant and can have a drunken time in Vegas ;)

So confused!!

I am getting annoyed at the situation with my body right now. I have a strong feeling that the doctor I seen on Friday was a complete careless jackass. I am 6 days late for my period, still feel very pregnant, I am throwing up and everything. I have not bled, I have not had pain that is anything out of the ordinary, I am sure I am pregnant. But I cannot get the tests to say so since I am sooo early in the pregnancy. I will be super surprised if I am not, I will honestly bet something big on it that I am. I called my old Midwife that delivered both my boys and she is very very good at what she does. I told her everything that is happening and she said that I have to be, but I am just feeling everything so soon that they only thing that is going to help right now is patience. She said the window with conception time is very confusing and sometimes it can take 4-7 weeks to get a positive result and she said to not rule it out. I know my body, my body is always doing the same thing with my womenly fun stuff, so I know that this situation going on right now would only be caused by pregnancy, she said that it doesnt sound like a misscarraige in any way shape or form, I would be having HCG and it would either stay the same or go to a peak then down, but its not. The test that the er doc ran was not the same test that they took a few days prior so they cannot be compared and he was wrong even suggesting that I couldnt be knowing that they werent the same test. He did no pelvic exam or anything, she said that he did not do enough to rule anything in or out, he was not thorough enough to even make a final decision. She said to wait til 2 weeks after my missed period and if it does not pull up then, then to go to the er and REQUEST a ultrasound so that they can figure out what is going on. She said there would be no other reason for what is going on that would not end in pregnancy. She said if I make it to that point and still have no pain or anything they would no doubt do ultrasound and see where the baby is, she said if this was eptopic I would be in pain, and bleeding and have pain in one specific area, she said if this was a misscarraige I wouldnt be having a few signs that I am, they would have stopped. So she is sure that I am, but its the waiting period that I am so impatient over and its hard to sit and wait when its Oh ya know..just a BABY!! lol So I am still taking care of myself like I am, and I am still trying to listen to my body and get the rest I need so that the baby can grow and develope if I am. I hope that I am, then on the other hand we can try again next month after we get home from Vegas. This is going to be my first time to Vegas and I did want to drink a little, but I will still have fun if I cant. So right now I just want to know what the hell is going on and why I cant get the answer that I need. So irritating! I am super upset about the damn ER visit, huge bill coming my way and a total jackass who wouldnt even listen to me and do the tests that I was asking for, I would have an answer right now if he would of. So...I will keep you updated, sorry if its annoying people, but I will just try to shut up about it for a bit. lol Thanks for putting up with my bullshit :)